Its been AGES

"Dah give up on RedKebaya ke?" someone asked me and i suddenly realised it really has been AGES since i last put in an entry!!!!!!!!!!

Well what can i say, life has a way of suddenly making certain priorities your entire focus sometimes. its as if everything else is put on hold and day in, day out you are completely absorbed by it.

For me its my mom..... after a very long deliberation and delay on her part, she finally agreed to having a mastectomy done end of may. alhamdulillah the surgery went well and i was happy to see her bouncing back so rapidly. she seem quite content with her lot in life. unfortunately chemotherapy is a totally different ball game and seem to be undoing the previous progress. since undergoing treatment 3 weeks ago mak has become quite weak n more than a little depressed. i wont go into details but suffice to say her recovery is very very slow.

I have taken 2 months off work just to be there for her.... at least some peace of mind that her needs will be met without questions asked. i'm all she has actually, for better for worse and sometimes i think she has the shorter end of the bargain poor soul. the price you pay for having only one child i guess.... kalau ada yang tak kena kena telan la juga. takde pilihan lain nak wat camane.

In a couple of days she will be facing her 2nd chemo..... and already she is talking of giving it a skip. she's definitely not very receptive to the idea of nausea, nausea and more nausea; and to a world that doesnt seem to stop spinning. in all honesty, i cant say i blame her.

Mak is not someone you can push around, she does what she wants and dont anyone say otherwise. and i am not someone who makes decision for others.... so we'll just see how the wind blows.