Sesak

Ketat dada.... thats what happens when i dont get to open up my lungs by huffing n puffing away out on the pavement.

And neither is the thoughtless popping of cookies or mindless crunching of readily available krepek helping me in any way..... sheesh.

So nak tak nak yours truly gagahkan juga keluar into the late afternoon heat to slowly jog round the neighbourhood (dogs be dammed). i've always avoided running in the late afternoon (the heat saps away at my energy in an instant) and it was certainly hard going at first (maklum la kan the last time abe and i managed to venture out was probably 4-5 days after raya when shah alam streets were still vacant and it was a great pleasure to run)..... but after a while i slowly eased into my regular rhythm and all was well again :)

Its been 2 consecutive days now. did about 3km yesterday and about 2km today. like i said, all is well and life is starting to look pretty good again. now all i need is to keep it going.

Workout Log
29/10/07 - 3km/pm/seksyen 9 (outer route)
30/10/07 - 2km/pm/seksyen 9 (inner route)

Undoing the good

Here in our merry lil corner of the world, syawal comes with a 1001 manner of open houses... by the end of which the good rendered by ramadhan dwindles into nothingness. weeeell almost la.. (cant a woman exaggerate a little just to strengthen her point? heheh).

Actually i havent really gone to all that many open houses mostly because the man likes relaxing at home (which translates into that much more entertaining n cooking for me). but theres just no end to the food is there? sana makanan sini makanan.... and all this eating right in the wake of ramadhan al-mubarak is rather disturbing n disquieting. you get to thinking, whats the friggin' point of all that fasting and abstaining we'd done earlier?

Today i had to skip a potluck raya gathering with my semsas batch, nak wat camane the guests kept trickling in. tapi no worries... even though i was kinda looking forward to meeting up with everyone, tetamu harus di dahulukan.

And the other sad part is i've packed in an extra kilo or two since syawal so its back to square one. still havent had the opportunity to run consistently again. sheeesh.... gerrrraaam.

Rindunya kat ramadhan!!

Workout Log
1 hr aerobics - a little tame because they were having a siaran lintas langsung with rtm's selamat pagi malaysia (nooo, i didnt get to be on tv... not interesting enough keh3x).

Meddling exes

You've had your chance... so now gerroff, beat it, vamooz!!

Cant we just rid the world of annoyingly meddlesome & 'over-friendly' exes? my poor girl had the misfortune of having her bf's ex suddenly contacting her during raya. same school but never really friends thus her surprise at receiving the sms. taking it as just another courtesy raya greeting, she didnt really give it much thought until she realised there wasnt going to be an end to the smses. noooooo.....seems like the ex wants to be all chummy with her now!! wtf? something's very wrong with this picture, very very wrong.

Still sangka baik tak pernah rugi and bcos AH's not the type to purposely go out of her way to make enemies, she responded to the 'friendly' overtures. unfortunately things started to become disturbingly annoying when the ex kept bringing up the bf every chance she got. sheesh... apa ni, kata nak berkawan? but looks like maybe theres udang di sebalik mee?

AH's bros (and their buddies.. diorang semua close dengan AH lol) have become mighty pissed that their little sis is being mistreated this way but even tho AH's annoyed and disturbed to the max, i can see that shes smart enough not to let it come between her and her bf. way to go girl. sabar je la....

I'm off to the market. Abe's bringing his golf buddies home for lunch.

A time for change

Theres a time for everything.

Over raya the family decided it was time that 1. AH had her own room 2. the boyz had access to more space.

Since we're NOT entertaining any thoughts of renovating, an extra room obviously isnt going to materialize out of thin air so.... we're shifting the guys downstairs by converting the den (home to the computer, tv, golf paraphenelia) into their new room. that means they (buddies included) would also have total access of the lower area everytime the rest of the family retires for the day. AH pulak can move into the space they'll be vacating. and i, i can start thinking about moving out her bajus thats now occupying a large area of my dressing room. aaaahh the extra space :)

Abe said we'd be dropping by IKEA later to check out what they have to offer after his game.

Projek cuti sekolah la kiranya so no real hurry.

Such a good feeling

Aah to finally have the opportunity to stretch me legs and get the ole heart pumping hard again :)

Yesterday when Abe went out for some brisk walking around the neighbourhood, i was too busy making nasi lemak n such for the 2nd day of raya (which was horribly frustrating bcos i was itching to tag along). today i set my alarm at 5 am and had my rendang ayam and nasi minyak ready by the time he was all set to move out..... no way was i going to be left behind this time heheh.

We were mighty ambitious and for a while there i thought that maybe, just maybe, i'd bitten off more than i could chew. after all i'd taken a break from running the whole of ramadhan. but turns out i need'nt have worried because it was a great run. i was egging him on and egging him on to go that much further and all in all we probably did 5-6 km, with him walking and me jogging (i kept running back to him whenever i turned and lost sight of him... and heeyy, that makes it that much further right?).

Isnt life just peachy :)

Workout Log
5-6K run/ am/ seksyen 9-seksyen 10-seksyen 11 route

Selamat Hari Raya

Salam Eidul Fitri from all of us... to all of you :)


(photo montage courtesy of ijat)

Maaf Zahir & Batin

Man in the house

Finally..... i'm gonna be having my man back in the house :)

He left ashgabat @ 4.20am (malaysian time) and arriving frankfurt @ 5.45 for a long stopover. ETA KLIA 6.25am Thursday and by 7 he'll be back where he belongs.... in the bosom of his family :)

My raya leave starts today. i have been so guilty of neglecting the raya preparations but i'm trying my best to catch up. yesterday AH and me managed to whitewash the front tembok (still a bit more to be done but the frontage is all nice and white now hehehe) and today its shopping time!! its probably going to be one utama or sunway (the new wing is ready) and we're leaving early in case there'll be a crowd later (hate crowds.... actually hate shopping too..... ah well gotta just do it).

Ketulusan Hati

Cintaku tak berdusta
Tak mengenal ingkar
Tak kenal nestapa

Cintaku hanya indah
Hanya bahagia
Untuk selamanya

Apa yang ku rasakan ini
Persembahan untuk diriMU
Kau dengarkan kasihku

MencintaiMU
Tak mengenal waktu
Tak mengenal puitis
Hanya tulusnya hati

MencintaiMU
Tak mengenal ragu
Keyakinan hatiku
Hanya untuk diriMU selalu

Cintaku tak berdusta
Tak mengenal ingkar
Tak kenal nestapa

Tak ada seribu janji
Hanya bahagia untuk selamanya


.. i lay my eternal love before You; guide us to the straight path... of whom You have bestowed Your grace, not of those who earned Your anger nor of those who went astray.

Tak larat

Gawd i soooooo need to buy stuff for raya but....... tak larat la.

I didnt really think that having mak sick this year would really effect me that much. after all the boys are all grown and abe isnt home so there aint really all that much to do at home (dont have any maids since mak never got along with any of them and it became a stressful situation instead of a helpful one). but i guess i thought wrong.

Now its almost a week to raya and i havent gotten down to doing anything yet. the kiddoes raya wardrobe is still na-da (dah beso pun mama gak yang kena uruskan), the house is still a mess (where to start? help), and i havent even identified stuff that needs change or a makeover.

for example:
AH was terribly excited over the prospect of painting our awful mouldy looking front tembok but everyone seem to get all sleepy and wooozy after sahur right till the afternoon. and then it becomes too hot for any outside activities.

I would have prefered to go shopping the same hour complexes open for business but the kiddoes would rather leave after zohor ...... problem is so does everybody else and that means access and parking to such places were scarce, sometimes even impossible. try going to mid valley or one utama at such times and you'd probably get stuck in a massive jam. not a good idea especially during puasa when most malay drivers gets pissed off very easily (they're not supposed to but thats the glaring reality).

Then theres the spring cleaning.... curtains that should have been laundered last month (maybe i'll just dust them?), kitchen that needs to be cleared off all that ridiculous clutter, rooms to be properly dusted, raya paraphernalia to bring out, etcetera etcetera.

And on top of all that i dont wanna miss out on trying to meingindahkan my ramadhan al-mubarak.

Aduh....

So much to be done and so tak larat.

Signs

Yup... its probably another sign of age whether i like it or not.

I'm definitely getting more muddled than ever, the frequency of which rather scares me actually. since abe's been posted overseas, i've been the one settling our bills (obviously) and its been that way for ...errmm almost what.... 2 years now? you'd think writing out cheques and stuff would've become automatic but nooooo...

A couple of days back i was out on my monthly bank rounds. there i was quite happy i'd managed to secure a parking space in an area quite notorious for its lack of. and there wasnt even a long queue at the bank, there were only 2 other people before me.

So when my turn came i happily passed over the slips (credit card n car loan repayment) only to be told that i'd written out the cheque wrongly - there wasnt a sdn bhd for ambank!!!!! huh? sdn bhd? of course there wasnt... i knew that, in fact everyone knows that. and imagine my utter consternation when she passed back the cheque and there, written quite clearly in my very own hand writing, was 'sdn bhd'. laaaaaaa where was i when i was writing that out (probably the list of contractors i was going through earlier at work had something to do with it la kot hehehe).

Ooh and i forgot to mention that prior to the ambank incident, i was at CIMB (on a similar mission) and only after taking a number did i realise i'd left my prewritten payment slips (with all the account nos. that i cant even begin to recall) in the car. so i had to retrace my steps get the #$@#!# slips and go thru the whole process again. sigh...agak pissed laa with myself.

Last nite plak was another story. some time ago i bought myself a rather comfy hoody, one which AH seem to like very much. i'd seen it again on offer when i was browsing around reject shop and thought i'd get her one of her own.. but somehow i never really got round to it until last nite. so cari punya cari nasib baik la i did manage to find a solitary size M in the whole pile tapi ntah macamana when i got back i realised i'd mistakenly taken a size S instead!!!!!! laaaaa punya la frust rasa cam nak menjerit je at my own carelessness..... tapi bcos AH suke sangat n memandangkan size M tu tinggal satu je mama dia pun gagahkan jugak la pergi tukar. weh loteh den tapi apo nak di kato? just hope this 'condition' dont get any worse, sickening giler!!!!!! oh and who would have thought that with mama going all mental, the day ended with an unexpected, unplanned, late nite (almost 11) visit by AH's bf.... hehehe..... talk about it being stranger than fiction.

And the kids seem to be thrown together by circumstances. we were at the mall earlier today, and where luck would have it, so was AH's bf. mak had voluntered my services to tolong belikan digi top-up for my neighbour's indon maid (nope dont even ask me the why's) and lelaki itu was there with his family for supper (after iftar n solat). somehow the two managed to squeeze in a quiet moment sharing some baskin robbins. hmmm thats two days in a row, and with PMR over i expect some development between those two.... gotta keep my eyes on them :)

Almost over

Eeesh lain rasanye bila anak perempuan ambik exam berbanding anak lelaki. i remember the boys dulu bila tanya je 'how was the paper?' jawapan standard was 'okay la' dengan diiringi muka2 selamba yang kekadang tu amat la menimbulkan geram (nak cubit2 je). tapi dengan sidaro pulak amatlah berbeza... segalanya penuh beremosi siap dengan keluh kesah lagi. with such blatant show of emotions maka cuak dia menjadi cuak kita la juga.

Hakikatnya we reap what we sow... selebihnya pula adalah rahmat NYA. dimulakan dengan usaha, disambut dengan penantian yang di warnai doa, debaran dan harapan dan diakhiri dengan hasilnya.

Kita tunggu dan lihat :)

PMR

Prepared or not, my baby's little battle has started today. she's not sick or anything and for that i'm thankful.... at least its a level playing field.

Mon, 1/10/2007
- BM 1, BM 2, Pengetahuan Islam
Tues, 2/10/2007
- BI 1, BI 2, Science 1, Science 2
Wed, 3/10/2007
- Maths 1, Maths 2, Sejarah
Thurs, 4/10/2007
- Kemahiran Hidup
Fri, 5/10/2007
- Geografi

Ganbate AH !!