"Dah give up on RedKebaya ke?" someone asked me and i suddenly realised it really has been AGES since i last put in an entry!!!!!!!!!!
Well what can i say, life has a way of suddenly making certain priorities your entire focus sometimes. its as if everything else is put on hold and day in, day out you are completely absorbed by it.
For me its my mom..... after a very long deliberation and delay on her part, she finally agreed to having a mastectomy done end of may. alhamdulillah the surgery went well and i was happy to see her bouncing back so rapidly. she seem quite content with her lot in life. unfortunately chemotherapy is a totally different ball game and seem to be undoing the previous progress. since undergoing treatment 3 weeks ago mak has become quite weak n more than a little depressed. i wont go into details but suffice to say her recovery is very very slow.
I have taken 2 months off work just to be there for her.... at least some peace of mind that her needs will be met without questions asked. i'm all she has actually, for better for worse and sometimes i think she has the shorter end of the bargain poor soul. the price you pay for having only one child i guess.... kalau ada yang tak kena kena telan la juga. takde pilihan lain nak wat camane.
In a couple of days she will be facing her 2nd chemo..... and already she is talking of giving it a skip. she's definitely not very receptive to the idea of nausea, nausea and more nausea; and to a world that doesnt seem to stop spinning. in all honesty, i cant say i blame her.
Mak is not someone you can push around, she does what she wants and dont anyone say otherwise. and i am not someone who makes decision for others.... so we'll just see how the wind blows.
Monday, July 09, 2007
Its been AGES
Posted by Justiffa at 4:16 PM
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4 comments:
RK, my doas for your mom. My mum too has the big C but she doesnt know abt it - she is too frail to undergo anything. But not knowing is good for her as she is not at all worried abt something she doesnt know. It is good that you are able to be with yr mum. I am so faaaaar awayyyy!
Take care and wlecome back to blogosphere.
God bless you, the good daughter. You are doing the right thing, taking time off to be with your mum when she needs you most. All my best wishes and doa that she will be well again soon. You take care of yourself too. Kak Hasnah.
sigh...it breaks my heart reading abt the big C.
but trust me, in more ways than we care to look,it is a gift.
my best to u n ur mom.
KT - thx for the doas... mak's so much better alhamdulillah :) fret not that u r far away, kekadang yg dekat pun tak berkesempatan utk buat apa2. it has a lot to do with rezeki n nikmat, agar we get to do our best for the ones we love.
kak hasnah - thx semoga sudi terus memanjatkan doa utk my mom ;)
nazrah - ha ah, mmg setuju setiap yg terjadi ada hikmah n nikmatnya. ty n u take care too.
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