Men

.... would always be boys at heart. they just cant resist tinkering with their latest 'toys' or gadgets can they?

Golfman says the car is mine, in fact he even officially handed the keys over to me the moment we got home yesterday.... but we know what that means right?! he was obviously dying to drive it to work so whats a gal to do but to oblige hehehe? and it wasnt until late this evening, after he'd satisfied himself with prying and prodding every nook & cranny, slot & crevice of the engine, body and interior... that i got the chance to test drive it.

Well, not bad. but i'm pretty surprised theres a huge difference in feel between a 5 series and a 3 series. after all its the same make, just a little smaller but its so light rasa macam melayang2 pulak mula2 tu. even the doors are lighter (the car sorta reverberated when i banged it shut being so used to the heavier car lol). of course the pick up is better so its more responsive when speed is needed but i still feel more secure with the other car when taking corners. maybe its just needs getting used to and adjusting. it feels about the same when cruising the highways but i must admit the smaller size is a bonus when squeezing into tight parking lots!!

The kids dubbed their father's 1st beemer bini muda wanda..... maybe this 2nd one could be bini muda wendy hehehe.

Hmmmm... i give him a week (maybe two at most) before his interest starts to wane and i get to claim 'my' car ;)

At long last..

... the wait is finally over *lounging back, wriggling toes & grinning madly*!!!!!

-no more nagging (gawd how i hate nagging) to get everyone ready and in the car before 7am
-no more rushing to beat the jams at 2 hotspots to kelana jaya and the other 2 hotspots back to shah alam.
-no more risking a burst artery (god forbid) for sprinting & punching in towards the very very last few seconds.
-no more nail biting in ultimate frustration because i'm stuck in the car instead of running free hehehe

Yup, we finally went to pick up the 'other' car so we're now back to one each, thank the good lord :)

Bliss bliss bliss !!

I get to claim that period of time, that glorious hour, between 7.10am - 8.10am as my very own yay!!

*still grinning*

Marriages

If you really think about it so many things can go wrong in a marriage..... but then again, so many things can also turn out alright !!! since life's a gamble anyway, for those of you who are hesitating out there, just take the plunge people :)

Today has been all about weddings.

A close relative finally found the right one at 44 and a big congratulations go out to the newly weds. she threw a very quiet & low key kenduri kesyukuran cum wedding reception for family & friends after zohor. indeed she looked every inch the radiant bride even though its been about a week since the nikah ceremony. semoga berbahagia dunia akhirat dan dilimpahi nikmat rahmatNYA.

Later in the day golfman & i were both invited to a pre-wedding meeting, which included a scrumptious dinner (graciously prepared by the tuan rumah herself). one of his golf buddies was marrying off his daughter in 2 weeks time and was putting together family & friends to help out with the ushering duties. the host used to be one of the senior vps so there'll be plenty of oilmen attending. and it came as no surprise that the hubs was appointed one of the 'oilmen usherers' since he'd certainly be in his element.... jgn brtukar jadi p.ramlee's orang minyak dah ler heheh.

Hmmm... rupanya ada jugak jejaka german yang kecik molek ek.

Workout Log
AM/aerobics - 45 mins/medium pace/dataran shah alam
AM/run - 4k/35 mins/tasik

Kecemerlangan

Cemerlang... surely a word that carries with it such high expectations. especially if we jazz it up with a couple of glam words or turn it into the national catch phrase like 'cemerlang, gemilang & terbilang'.

A heavy responsibility to carry.

Especially if you're a kid.

AH's school had a majlis anugerah kecemerlangan pelajar2 PMR & SPM this morning along with the annual PIBG meeting. 68 students went on stage to be personally presented with a pen and certificate by the shah alam mayor himself... which means AH & gang have been lucky enough to meet up with the previous MB and also the mayor over their pmr achievement. the spm recepients were also there looking pretty jubilant over their awards, and at spm level, they truly deserve it. for us malaysians whether we like it or not, spm is one of life's major crossroads.

The thing is what's our perception of the word 'cemerlang'? yes, we all want our kids to be cemerlang but sometimes i think we've all developed a sort of tunnel vision where the word is concerned. perform, perform, perform.... its all about the A's. now who's not proud of having a kid who comes up with straight A's, but at what cost? its ok if they are allowed to play as hard as we want them to work but sometimes, sometimes, we get so carried away that we heartlessly take away all the joy from their lives.

Case in point is AH's new pengetua. she's sooooo into discipline (during her speech she admitted to having majored in psychology but also admits to being a disciplinarian... a word that she actually had trouble pronouncing) she forgets that she's dealing with kids. kids are born full of hope & optimism.... until we heartlessly squash it dead that is. high school is not just a place where they gather knowledge about the world and their surrroundings, its also a place where they discover themselves. they need to interact and come to terms with their limits & boundaries.... and for that we need to accord them with a certain amount of freedom.

Discipline is necessary to maintain a certain level of order and self displine is needed if we want to keep improving ourselves. but like everything else, we should avoid extremes... even when it comes to something as necessary as discipline. teachers can insist on discipline all they want during the course of a school day but it surely doesnt bode well for the students if they're not allowed to let their hair down on certain special occasions like school matches & sportsday?!

Instruction was given that excessive cheering, face markings, related accessories like head gears or arm bands will not be tolerated.... the pengetua had determined that it's all related to 'rowdy behaviour'. ooh come on.... how can one generate motivation and inspiration in the fields through docility & meekness??? how can we produce champions when we put their spirits on a tight leash? and how can we keep the sporting spirit alive with the children when we ourselves are not sporting?

And with so much emphasis placed on academic achievement, surely it also doesnt bode well for the students if their annual ceria-ton (or concert day), an event which is very much looked forward to, might be scraped from the school calendar all in the name of keeping discipline?! sportsday and concertday are 2 events that's a must for any school, be it in shah alam or yokohama.... because thats when the kids get the opportunity to showcase their other talents.

We need to remember its not just about IQ, its also about emotional intelligence & social intelligence.... and a whole lot of other things that completes us as a person.

If we want kecemerlangan from the kids, we really do need to get things into its proper perspective.

Maulidur Rasul

Very very quiet on the home front this morning.... just a bunch of sleeping children (2 semi-adults actually) and extremely pampered kitty cats (theres 3 now thanks to mak & her new found role as catwoman).

I had to miss out on the perarakan maulidur rasul with my gang of officemates but i just couldnt squeeze in the morning practises into my already loaded schedule. it would have been fun being part of the state parade... you would end up quite sweaty & bothered in the sponsored 'costume' but fun nevertheless (a band of old farts goofing about lol).

As usual it was the tasik again for me. i wish i felt more safe & secure running along the roads of shah alam (its home after all) but the dog & monkey incident still haunts me so in the end its always, always, the tasik. it gets pretty boring sometimes making the same loop over and over buuuut.. i hate feeling scared more than i hate the boredom of repetition. theres usually lots of people about no matter the time of day (no dogs or monkeys for sure) and repetition can be rather theurapetic in its own way (or so i keep telling myself hehe).

So unless a running buddy miraculously turns up (i'm not giving up on turning my man into just that person but its gonna take awhile yet lol), its the same old same old.

AF came home late last nite for a nice long weekend break since his friday lectures were cancelled. unfortunately today, on another of his usual kl forays, he banged the avanza against another tiang, yet again (the same spot as before but this time its banged up pretty badly). gawd whats with him and his left side? his judgement really sucks big time.

Weell, accidents do happen i guess but he'll still have to face the music when golfman comes home saturday morning.

AH seems happy enough after her outing to sunway with ainal & gang. there was the F1 school thingy followed by a nice long session of ice skating. thank god she has quite a level head on her shoulders. its actually a blessing she pulled out of that sinking relationship when she did. she probably would've ended up hurting herself even more by letting it drag on. but for a 15 year old to put her foot down and say 'either you love me or you dont', especially to a guy she's been hero worshipping for as long as i can remember.... now that took a lot of guts!!! power to you my darling!! insyallah theres already someone better out there just waiting to be discovered ;)

Now to my other darling who cant be home this time round due to his endless stream of assignments.... ijat sayang, nanti ma cuba jenguk ek when abah comes home. luvya lots missya plenty.

Workout Log
AM/run - 8k/tasik/ forgot all about timing but it must've been pretty slow bcos i wasnt sweating as much as usual. hmmm..

Reminders

Reminder 1.

The January issue of Mayo Clinic Health Letter lists some of the benefits of 30 minutes of exercise a day:

Lower blood pressure: A reduction of 5 to 10 millimeters of mercury (mm Hg) is possible. In some cases, that’s enough to prevent or reduce the need for blood pressure medications.

Improve cholesterol: Exercise often increases the concentration of high-density lipoprotein (HDL or “good” cholesterol in the blood), especially when accompanied by weight loss. Exercise also helps reduce triglyceride levels.

Prevent or manage type 2 diabetes: Exercise helps insulin work better, lowering blood sugar. - diabetes is a great concern of mine, very high risk from my paternal side.

Manage weight: Coupling exercise with a healthy diet is the best way to shed fat and maintain a healthier body composition.

Prevent osteoporosis: Exercise may increase bone density and protect against bone mass decline, especially if weight-bearing activities are involved.

Prevent cancer: Exercise has been shown to strengthen the immune system, improve circulation, reduce body fat and speed digestion. Each has a role in preventing cancer, particularly cancers of the colon, prostate, uterine lining and breast. - from my maternal side.

Maintain mental well-being: Exercise may help reduce stress, improve mild-to-moderate depression and anxiety, improve sleep and boost moods.

Increase energy and stamina: A lack of energy often results from inactivity, not age. - hear, hear..... theres hope yet for old farts like me heheh. lets get active people!!!!

Reminder 2.

ScienceDaily (Feb. 9, 2008) — The consequences of quitting exercise may be greater than previously thought, according to a new study from the U.S. Department of Energy’s Lawrence Berkeley National Laboratory that determined that the weight gained during an exercise hiatus can be tough to shed when exercise is resumed at a later date.

The study, conducted by Paul Williams of Berkeley Lab’s Life Sciences Division, found that the key to staying trim is to remain active year-round, year-after-year, and to avoid seasonal and irregular exercise patterns. Most of all, don’t quit. Failure to do so may be a contributing factor in the nation’s obesity epidemic. It should prompt people to think twice before taking a break from their exercise regimens, despite the pressures of family and work obligations, or waning motivation.

Using data collected from the National Runners’ Health Study, Williams found that the impacts of increasing and decreasing vigorous exercise aren’t the same among all runners. At distances above 20 miles per week in men and 10 miles per week in women, the pounds gained by running less were about the same as the pounds lost by running more. At these exercise levels, the effects of training and quitting training are comparable, and the weight gains and losses associated with changes in exercise levels are probably reversible.

However, Williams found that people who didn’t run as many miles per week face an uphill battle if they want to lose the pounds accumulated during an exercise hiatus. At these less intense levels, an interruption in exercise produces weight gain that is not lost by simply resuming the same exercise regimen.

“At lower mileages, there is asymmetric weight gain and loss from increasing and decreasing exercise, leading to an expected weight gain from an exercise hiatus,” says Williams. “In other words, if you stop exercising, you don’t get to resume where you left off if you want to lose weight.”

Specifically, Williams compared 17,280 men and 5,970 women who decreased their running distance with 4,632 men and 1,953 women who increased their running distance over a 7.7-year period. He found that runners who decreased their distance from five to zero miles per week gained four times as much weight as those who decreased their distance from 25 to 20 miles per week. He also found that people who started running after an exercise layoff didn’t lose weight until their mileage exceeded 20 miles per week in men, and 10 miles per week in women.

Adeh susah betui laaa.... dah active nak kena keep active pulak tu. but then nobody said keeping fit & healthy was a breeze now did they?

hmmmm its definitely a life long commitment. takpe la mudah2an tak nyusahkan anak2 nanti, insyallah.

Keeping busy

When one is in a troubled state of mind keeping busy is probably one of the best options. dwelling on it will only make things worse so.... busy busy busy. and when one tires of all that running about, sleep isnt too bad a choice either. you conk off and next thing you know... "hey, its another day" ;)

Then of course theres always, always peace & solace in the AlMighty.


Workout Log
AM/run - 4k/35 mins/ tasik

A Week without..

... the man.

Functioning and managing as only half of a complete whole is nothing new but its been awhile. Abe's been home for the past couple of months so it needs some getting used to... again. the good part is, this time its just for a week.. the bad part is, he might be reassigned to the caspian sea for yet another undetermined length of time.

Gawd, how i hate managing alone.

But..... we'll cross that bridge when we come to it.

One of the compensations of being left behind is having some space to call my own... which means i get to run in the mornings again and maybe be able to move back to a certain level of consistency. i find that without regular exercise fatigue sets in more easily and i just dont have room for that in my life. not with so many depending on me.... to stay sane, happy, healthy & functioning.


Workout Log
AM/Slow Jog - 4k/40 mins/ tasik

Growth

My heart goes out to my lil girl.

What you did certainly took a lot of guts but he shouldnt be allowed to keep on breaking your heart. and however painful it might be right now, you will overcome this insyallah.

WE will always love you no matter what.

Helpless

As parents it hurts us to no end when we sometimes have to take on the role of a helpless bystander.. while our children battle the challenges that life seems to constantly throw at all of us; challenges that are actually necessary for our growth.

The urge to shield & to protect is sooo strong that sometimes we literally have to force ourselves to step back and not interfere. heck we love them with all our heart & soul... so its only natural that we'd want to intervene when a mistake seems to be in the making. aaaah, how frequently we've interfered with the ready justification of " i did it because i love you"!!

But makan garam dulu doesnt guarantee that we're always right and what is best for us doesnt necessarily mean it would be best for them. sometimes they need to go through the heartache & hardship to become stronger; they need to make the mistakes so that they can learn from it and become better.

Still, knowing all this doesnt make it any easier.

Just understand one thing though, mama's always here for you.. and you.. and you, no matter what. selagi hayat di kandung badan mama akan mendoakan yang terbaik.

Where were you?

" i walked for miles along the beach.. searching endlessly for someone wonderful to step out of the darkness and change my life. it never crossed my mind that the person could be me "
- ANON


i've been soo busy, i've almost lost touch with myself....


Workout Log.
Run/PM - 3km/forgot about keeping time/sect. 9

Big words

".... orchestrating learning opportunities.... "

Management books are interesting tapi kalau the authors tetiba get these 'syiok sendiri' attacks, agak leceh la nak faham. apa salahnya kalau keep it simple and direct but nooooooo.... nampaknya the more berbelit the better. why? baru nampak macam dia pandai kot sebab the masses tak paham.

Sebenarnye simplifying things and making it easily understood lagi challenging, lagi menunjukkan ke'terra'an seseorang tu bukan sebaliknye. if only most writers could understand that, senang hidup.

Golfman pun actually terpengaruh jugak dengan budaya 'lets make it berbelit2' ni (skit2 la). there was this unfinished report that he brought home and although he kept singing about it the whole weekend, tapi tak jugak buat2. i knew he was going to throw in a last minute effort... with me in the equation somehow. sooo when the somewhat unscheduled sweet talking/kissing/caressing started, i couldnt help but laugh. alaaaa trick lama la bang hehehe... quite obviously an udang sebalik mee/ scooter sebalik lori kinda situation, dah tau sangat. Abe weh, tak butter up pun kita tolong jugak la, takkan nak biar Abe bersengkang mata sorang2 kan ;)

So he whips out a couple of management books and shows me some of the important sounding terms that could be used to spice up his report.

Hah?

Iisssh.... toksah nak ikut2 sangat la all the bombastic words my darling. keeping it sweet & simple should be the order of the day. biar ramai yang faham and appreciate what you're trying to get across; not swayed by the 'glamorous' feel tapi bila kaji habuk pun tarak.

Lets just leave that to our dear politicians... after all they've turned it into an artform.


Workout Log
Aerobics/Am - 40 mins/mid to high/dataran shah alam

Once in 4 years..

A special day? perhaps.... after all it doesnt come around every year now does it?!!

Tapi kan i'm thinking kalau ikut je lunar months, tak yah la nak adjust2 (eh ya ke?). rasanya la but what do i know.

Yang pasti i'm going nuts-o!!

.. my monthly's gone haywire this month, probably premenapausal in nature (i dont even want to think about the other possibilities).

.. my previous projek cuti sekolah (moving the kiddoes bedrooms) is still on hold until we install air cond to the den. and the hubs isnt showing any signs of that happening anytime soon.

.. the recent skyhigh water bill seems to be indicative of a leak somewhere along the pipes within the property (it has rocketted to RM300+ without any reason whatsoever), which means we need to engage the services of a plumber. but golfman isnt showing any signs of that happening anytime soon either (he'd rather tutup the mains before he goes off to bed).

.. the erratic weather and sudden downpours have caused mild (but still irratingly inconvenient) flooding of my wet kitchen, thus cementing the fact that the contractor we'd hired was a freakin' asshole. some rectification work is necessary but again i dont foresee anything happening anytime soon.

Aaargghh.

BUT regardless of all the BS.... 29/02/2008 is still a special day.

RK trivia - i am addicted to text twist. after a while it becomes kinda boring but i still sit there like a fool and do it anyway. pathetic... that i am i guess. or compulsive without the obsessive? dunno but right now the whooshing sound is bliss.

Kereta oh kereta

Alahai lamanya nak arrange tukar nama ni.... should always think twice before buying a car whose owner is over the seas. leceh seribu kali leceh.

Dah letih la hunggar sana hunggar sini, asyik laju tak menentu. i've never been a wilting bunga tanjung behind the wheels (my kids will attest to my fast driving) but lately its been a madder than mad rush... and i dont think it augers well for anyone.

Crash - boom - bang!!! gawd, thats the last thing i'd want to happen!!! but i find myself flooring the pedal just the same... mainly because i wanna get off the roads as fast as i can.

This super supir-o needs a little time-out. yup, she'd rather be pounding the pavements. ooh the morning runs is a thing of the past now. its been absolutely ages and the sad thing is i still havent been able to come up with a satisfactory alternative. uwaaaaah!!!

Nak keter, nak keter... mane keter?!!

Hmmm rindu la kat my boys. kalau diorang ada panjang skit langkah. nak gi tenguk 10000 BC tapi my daro asyik nak gi ngan bf dia je walaupun mamat tu sekarang tengah bz memanjang. AF tu ok tapi dia tu bila balik selalunya banyak sangat aktiviti, keluar ngan ab la arin la boboy la. AI senang skit nak heret (asalkan makan kat luar semuanya boleh je hehehe) tapi budak tu plak jarang nak balik.

Sigh.

(eh banyak mengeluh la aku ni lately).

ya Allah aku sentiasa mensyukuri segala nikmat MU..

(so yang ngadu2 ni... saja nak bermanja je sebenarnya).

Hmmm

As people grow older they should know better.... maklum la dah makan garam awal, dah banyak pengalaman hidup. as the saying goes 'the older the wiser'.

But not so. its not a given thing that one gets wiser with age. depends on how open they are to their surroundings and how willing to learn from their own & other people's life experiences. for some who are endlessly in denial, who 'choose' to stay hopelessly blur, or are just arrogantly dismissive of views other than their own..... might very well end up with 'peter pan' mentality the whole of their life. sampai satu tahap dah jadi 'tak relevan'.

Paling tak suka bila tenguk orang dah berumur suka marah2. its bad enough if a young punk loses his temper in public tapi lagi teruk kalau tenguk an old fart mengamuk-ngamuk tanpa arah tujuan. memalukan.... mana pergi segala kesabaran? bukan ke lagi tua patut lagi bersabar? lebih-lebih lagi kalau di masukkan pulak bab keimanan.... mana letaknya kemanisan iman?

Buruk sungguh perangai. macam mana nak jadi contoh? pastu senang2 nak menuding jari pada yang muda belia!!! kenapa nak jadi ketam kalau boleh jadi khalifah?!

Sigh.. teramat la rugi.

Pohon petunjuk ke jalan yang KAU redhai.

Wardrobe change

I do realise i'm in dire need of new work clothes.... i've been recycling the same stuff over & over & over and the years have finally taken its toll. what i have i like, tapi kesian je tenguk semua dah lusuh tak bermaya. but to go out and face those racks & racks of endless choices and actually having to choose the ones that suit me best (bcos of limited funds la otherwise no problem, tibai je semua kan?!)... just the thought of it puts me off every time.

I'm a simple person and most comfortable in jeans & tshirt. but of course thats not an option for work lol, not even for site visits and such. so its usually mix & match stuff, with an inclination towards a simple contemporary style (if you could even call it that la). tapiiiiii..... considering my age i'm thinking maybe its time i made my peace with the baju kurung. so far its presence in my wardrobe is only out of necessity. bukannya apa, i have this thing about its kain beralun i.e. the gathers thats bunched up on the side. makes me feel unbalanced somehow and very very uncomfortable, not to mention clumsy. i usually end up using just the top of the baju kurung and teaming it up with one of my dependable black or blue kain selisih instead of the matching bottom.

Yup its high time for a change la.

Especially because with baju kurung you dont have to think beyond choice of material design. theres plenty 'off the rack' so you dont have to worry about finding a reputable tailor. and getting the right size isnt a big deal either because it can be loose and big for all anyone cares. for people like me, one who goes absolutely bonkers when presented with a sea of empty parking lots but is happy with just one, narrowing the options is extremely helpful. and its also very versatile - with the right accessories (the right tudung, the right shoes & bag) it can be transformed from casual to formal in the blink of an eye!! tak payah pening2 fikirkan which blouse would suit which longskirt and whether the kebaya will still fit given your penchant for yummylicious cheesecake even after a substantial (read: heavy) dinner.

Betul la.... very the easy. now if i can only stop myself from cringing everytime i think about it.


Workout Log.
gym/treadmill - 4km/35mins/300cal/speed @7 but fiddled around with the incline levels.

Captured images

Truth be told we're a camera-shy family..... we dont really have lotsa pics to show off and kalau adapun gitu2 je. now that the kids are all grown i sometimes wish there were more captured images for me to go back to. going down memory lane without these little triggers can be quite an uphill endeavour, especially when i've become that much more sluggish in the 'memory recall' department lol.

Recently for a family that isnt too clicker happy (as in trigger happy) we're suddenly seeing a lot of clicking equipment about the place. AI's diploma in mass comm requires that he lugs around a dslr camera so last year we got him a pentax (friggin expensive but lucky thing we got one that was on sale). last week AF came home with the sole purpose of getting himself something similar, a sony this time (bought largely on his own sholarship surplus), to facilitate his teaching modules. and latest is AH... she's in the 'sidang redaksi majalah sekolah' and who'd have thought she'd be appointed as one of the photographers?!! omigosh, another cam in the house (from zero to trio?) but this time it'll be one of 'em automatic thingies.. like cybershot perhaps (oh but she says it has to be of a certain megapixel and no, i really dont know what i'm talking about lol).

Hmmmm maybe it's time i got me one of 'em facials since i might very well be the object of errr, interest nanti kan (perasan hehehehe). but i also have this nagging suspicion it wont be doing much good la dah kerepot mepot ni hikhik ;)

What a relief to finally have i/net connection again. we were cut off from the rest of the whole wide world (another shortform for the www lol) part of saturday and all of sunday. AH was supremely annoyed she couldnt get online.... partly because of the 'terencat-ness' it'd caused to her chatting & myspace, partly the 'terbantut-ness' to her guitar sessions like access to tabs, lyrics and utube. she usually spends her time playing mainstream english hits like misery business, polaroid etc etc. but i did catch her trying out malay hits recently and i must say her rendition (bantai version she says) of faisal's kasih tercipta & imran ajmain's 1000 tahun was pretty amazing. but then i'm her mom so i'm biased i guess heheh.

She's an introvert but to a certain extent having a bf helped her open up a bit but its a slow process. no i dont want her to do a 360 deg turn on me no way. its just that i sometimes wish she'd sing at school and blow her schoolmates away.... to most of them she's the sweet, nerdish rather predictable prefect, another face in the crowd. aside from her close friends they've never seen the kick-ass side of her lol. but that one, she has many layers... and i'm slowly discovering some of them myself :)

Panas petang

Never underestimate the effects of the afternoon heat..... it can really get to ya!!!!

I always try to avoid running in the late afternoon tapi apa kan daya when theres no other option available to me. semenjak tinggal satu je kereta to our disposal my morning schedule memang kena tolak ketepi..... nak sampai ofis on time pun dah satu rahmat after sending off AH and her daddy to their respective destination. i love the cool morning air when i'm huffing and puffing away like a mad cow.... bila inhale masuk tu segar je rasanye, and the ole lungs bersemangat la skit nak berfungsi.

Kurang enjoy sebenarnya lari petang2 especially now. badan yang dah berumur ni agak memberontak bila dipaksa bermengah2 sambil disalai mentari yang walaupun dah mula mengundur namun bahangnya tetap terasa. kejap je dah letih..... leceh ah. nak pergi bersantai kat gym takut tersangkut pulak kat bulatan kayangan yang sibuk sangat selepas waktu kerja. malam2 pulak dah nak kena melayan famili.

Aaaarggghhh and i hate it that i find myself making lots & lots of excuses sekarang ni!!!! gawd, i just want my car back!!!! tapi nak mintak balik dari aie when he obviously needs it more than me tak sampai hati la plak so...... ish tak sabar la tunggu settle whatever it is that needs to be settled before we can start using the 'new' car (secondhand actually but still new la to us lol) that we're buying.

*sigh*

Dulu2 hantar ambik bebudak je kesana sini.... tapi sekarang tambah plak mengantar mengambik paknye not only to work and back but also to the golf course or wherever else the need may be.

*double sigh*

Weh, penat la jadi super supir-o ni!!!! (but i'm also perfectly sure the Abe himself pun super penat naik turun lrt so kesian gak la kat dia actually heheh.... luvya babe!!).


Workout Log
Run/PM - 4k/tasik/took my own sweet time.

Mak's 64th

Semoga dipanjangkan umur dalam keimanan & kesejahteraan yang tak bertepi.

2007 was a traumatic year for mak and losing her bestfriend towards the end of it was a big blow to her already waning spirit. she knows she has my full support but with my rather full life right now, i know that she's keeping back a lot of things from me.

She needs people her own age to share the aches & pains and all the uncertainties that comes with growing old. but everytime i try to make some sort of arrangement for her, she's never interested so.... i guess she knows what she needs better than me. mana boleh paksa2..... orang tua2 tersangat la sensitif when it comes to these things.

I just want you to have peace of mind and soul mak..... happy 64th birthday!!!