Cut off

.. from the world.

Argghh.

Something is wrong with the internet connection... with the one at home.

Something's very very wrong.

Its been 2 days now.

Aaarrrrrgghhhh.

Surprise!!

.. my lil gal turned 16 today and i hope she liked her birthday 'present' ;)

AH has always been a rather straightforward person so when i asked her what it was that she wanted for her birthday, the cheeky lil smartass replied "nak asyraf bole?". haish, now how on earth was i going to do that? conjure up her bf from thin air complete with ribbons? hehehe a magician i certainly wasnt so we had to settle for the next best thing.... have him over for the day.
And thats exactly what he did. AZ was extremely sporting about the whole thing and made himself available for his gf... even though it also meant being 'bullied' in the bargain (by me & mak heheh)!!!! thanks a whole bunch dear, you certainly made AH's 16th birthday a memorable one. she went completely gaga over the gorgeous green tea ice-cream cake, among other things ;)

Yup she's a big girl now (but hey masih underage ok so rules still apply, except maybe not so strict la).

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN my darling... wishing you a blessed lifetime ahead!!

Today's the day I've waited for
Because you're not a baby anymore
You've turned into the prettiest girl I've ever seen
Happy birthday sweet sixteen

What happened to that funny face
My little tomboy now wears satin and lace
I can't believe my eyes you're a teenage dream
Happy birthday sweet sixteen
(a real oldie by Neil Sedaka. its sooo old that the young people probably never even heard of it hehehe)

Oh and not to be outdone, i too had a surprise waiting for me at day's end. AI called out of the blue and said he'd be home before midnite... something about classes being cancelled. YAY!! terubat rindu :)

And just for the record our 'cikgu' is doing quite well in kulim and is relieved he got thru his 1st observation without too much 'bloodshed' eheh..way to go AF!!

Israk Mikraj

... by maghrib, it will be israk mikraj again and time to commemorate our beloved prophet's journey & ascension to the heavens.

When we mention israk mikraj to the kids they seem to view it almost like a fairy tale (they also treat stories of their parents childhood the same way but thats beside the point eheh). i'm sure they're not taking our prophet lightly but maybe because it happened so long ago and in such an incredible way. which is rather unfortunate because by doing so they miss the significance of the event.

Maybe we shouldnt approach the subject in the usual manner by reciting the event per se. maybe we should spark their interest by injecting a little bit of science into it.

Quoting from a forum:

Apa yang perlu dan penting sekali bagi umat Islam perpanjangkan kisah realiti ini ialah pengaplikasiannya dan pengadaptasian pengetahuan hasil anugerah terhadap Nabi SAW ini dalam aspek sains dan teknologi, sains angkasa, kosmologi dan sebagainya yang akhirnya boleh menyumbang kepada kemajuan tamadun Manusia. Sekadar menyebut beberapa contoh sahaja sebagaimana di bawah.

Burak - adalah suatu perlambangan kenderaan terpantas meneroka angkasa lepas. Orang Barat menggunakan kenderaan angkasa untuk meneroka planet Marikh contohnya, mengambi masa beberapa tahun untuk pergi dan kembali.

Masa - masa di sisi Tuhan adalah panjang berbanding masa dunia. Rasulullah SAW meneroka 7 lapisan langit hingga menemui Tuhannya dalam masa satu malam sahaja.

Alam - adalah 'ma siwallah-apa atau sesuatu selain Allah keluasannya tidak terkira. ' ... ketika baginda melihat dengan mata batin dari sidrat al-muntaha ke alam ini. (Husein Haikal, 1989, hlm.157). Hal ini sudah pasti pada masa itu boleh melihat keseluruhan bumi ini yang bulat bentuknya.

Aspek-aspek sains dan teknologi - serta keilmuan lain seperti aspek perubatan, kisah-kisah masa depan, hirarki sesebuah kerajaan dan sebagainya

Cukuplah sekadar membayangkan beberapa contoh sahaja panduan ketamadunan hasil dari reality peristiwa israk dan mikraj ini kepada kemajuan ilmu serta sains dan teknologi. Sebenarnya banyak lagi panduan ketamadunan yang boleh diambil dari kisah israk dan mikraj ini dalam banyak aspek ilmu pengetahuan. Kalau kita meneliti banyak pembikinan filem Hollywood sebagai contoh lain, sebenarnya jika diselidiki akan menyerlahkan suatu pengadaptasian dari kisah israk dan mikraj ini. Orang Barat juga begitu maju dalam bidang sains angkasa, sedangkan cetusan mengenai sains angkasa dan penerokaan angkasa lepas itu telah dicetuskan sedemikian lama oleh baginda SAW melalui peristiwa Israk dan Mikraj.

Sebagai kesimpulannya peristiwa Israk Mikraj adalah suatu kejadian yang benar-benar berlaku dalam sejarah kehidupan Nabi SAW yang menjadi suatu anugerah kebesaran baginda SAW sebagai kekasih Allah dan nabi Akhir zaman. Peristiwa ini banyak mendatangkan kesan kepada kehidupan beribadat, bermasyarakat dan kehidupan keilmuan umat Islam dan manusia keseluruhannya.

Dalam kehidupan beribadat, Solat contohnya, adalah ibadat terpenting yang diterima oleh baginda SAW secara terus dari Allah SWT. Dalam kehidupan bermasyarakat pula, segala peristiwa yang disaksikan oleh Nabi SAW mengenai keburukan mengumpat, riba, perbuatan zina dan sebagainya adalah mampu membentuk masyarakat berperadaban dan berharmoni. Akhir sekali peristiwa ini banyak mencetuskan dan membuka jalan kearah penerokaan pelbagai ilmu sains dan teknologi seperti kemajuan sains angkasa dan seterusnya menjadi panduan kepada ketamadunan manusia.

Wallahu a'lam

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... and by mid-night tonite, my sweet sentimental baby will be turning 16!! gawd where did the time go? dah besar rupanya dara mama ni ek ;)

Ooh and to the thousands of chelsea fans (go ballack go hikhik) who'll be thronging the shah alam stadium tonite, do take a minute to reflect on the myriad of experiences that our prophet (saw) went through that memorable night so many many years ago.

Semoga kita sama-sama mendapat berkat & rahmat yang berterusan dariNYA, insyallah.

Tertinggal boat

Sheesh, how could i have not realised it sooner?

Its almost august and for me it usually means getting myself ready for the shah alam 10k run. for the past couple of years september's the time that mbsa would usually be putting up the event (maybe even late august bcos of ramadhan)... or so i thought but it sure looks like i've been proven wrong!!

Shit-e!!

Damn!!

I checked at the pacesetters events calender and theres no shah alam 10k listed!! correct me if i'm wrong but looks like they're only focussing on the adidas KOTR this year. and i thought it was just another race....

Damn!

Double damn!!

I should've checked sooner. why didnt i check sooner? why? and the closing date for entries was the 25th of july!!!! that was just 3 days ago... just 3 days!! alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

(can i start crying now?)

Dah la i've gotten FAT... now any motivation that i might have dah gone up in smoke. tahun ni betul2 slack about my running, in fact almost non-existent and i'm paying dearly for it. my brains must've also turned to mush lately bcos i completely failed to make the connection - takkan mbsa nak put up 2 major events back to back kan, bukannya diorang tu rajin sangat pun kan.

I do know it takes a lot of effort organising this sorta thing.... tapi saja tak nak acknowledge sebab tengah frust sangat sangat sangat :(

I have to get out and run today.

I just hafta!!

Sayang oh sayang

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight its only you and me
(Here without you - 3 doors down)

Flicking through my cookbook, i smile as i hear them playing this song at yahoo music. it instantly reminds me of my sweet sentimental AH.... to think that she's still missing her bf even though they get to meet almost everyday! heh and even with webcam! nampak je cool tapi ehem, whats with the tissues darling? kalau tak dapat jumpa agaknye bengkak je la mata tu ek!!

Teringat pulak masa zaman AF dulu. i remember us snickering to his whispered phone conversations "sayang sayang sayang? sayang sayang sayang!!" (translated it means "u sayang i? i sayang u!")

Hehehe... macam2 la bebudak ni :)

Abe's off to JB tomorrow on a day trip and going to klcc to pick up his avis rented car was a horror. tak suka la bila these guys that we love start being grumpy!! asyik moyok je nak cakap pun macam malas and after a while it gets tiring sebab nak tolong pun tak tau camane kan. ntah pape la yang ruffle their feathers and all we can do is pretend that everything is ok.. buat selamba pok pek sana pok pek sini usik sana usik sini. which actually works jugak la after a while tapi letih la nak pujuk2 ni... especially when it isnt our fault pun in the first place.

Tapi bila dah sayang nak buat camane kan?

Sayang sayang sayang!!

Tinkering about

Been at the pc most of the day (mata pun naik berbinar dah ni) updating my blogs and generally tinkering about.

Put up a new one to house my recipes and toyed with the idea of changing templates for the others. luckily for me sanity returned and i just left well alone (how could i have forgotten the horror of the lost widgets so easily?).

Ooh but i did find a new problem though. the links to the blog archive dont seem to be working. if i click at the years 2005, 2006 and 2007 all i get are blank pages. hmmm.. i need time to figure this one out or probably what would be more realistic is... i need HELP!!! dont think i'll ever figure it out on my own eheh.

Anyway i can still read the old posts if i want to but via the slooooow way i.e. by clicking at 'older posts'.

If only html made more sense to me.

AF - probably having his hands full juggling between classes and eva eheheh but its ok i guess bcos where he is concern, no news usually mean good news.
AI - might be coming home next weekend to recharge. seems that he's going through a break-up. you gotta be strong sayang mama, no ones worth wrecking your body & soul over. just hang in there k, the right one will come along insyallah.
AH - is pretty impressed by the soccer prowess of her 'hotstup' bf. she's a happy gal alright but a rather tired one (dah terlena pun.. and with her specs on tsk tsk!).

Comel

Oooooh... i'm so gonna get it from AH but what the heck hehehe.

I was clearing up my messy desktop, rearranging icons and updating folders, when i came across a couple of AH's pics. nak wat camane kan dah ada tu tenguk je la *wink wink*


Syhhhhhh.... diam2 tau dia marah sangat kaco bf dia but you know me memang kaki mengusik :)

And why am i so chummy with this one? mainly bcos he's in the unique position of being not only AH's bf but also AI's friend. i dunno, once they fall into the category of friends to my boys they sorta become macam anak2 jugak so cepat je mesra... tapi kesian gak la sebab selalu kena 'buli' ;)

Clearing cobwebs

Heh time to close up some of my old unused email accounts. menyemak je bukannye pakai pun.

But what i didnt realise was its not that simple to close an account; compared to creating one that is. kalau nak create senang je just follow the step-by-step instructions tapi kalau nak tutup, kena meraba2 sendiri or get some help from 'help' (obviously lol).

It wasnt necessary pun to close unused accounts bior je la kan tapi semak otak la dibuatnye so, raba meraba rupanye ada kat edit service.

i.e. click setting>>account tab>>google account>>edit service>>delete gmail/close account

Hah... puas. tapi harap2 tak la effect pulak yang lain, mana la tau kan.

Sarat

... hari yang sarat dengan peristiwa.

Awal2 lagi i checked cik Abe's weekend schedule and confirmed that he had a golf game lined up this morning. that would mean him lepak-ing with his buddies from 7am till around 3pm. that would also mean i myself would be free to lepak if i choose to.

So since EXSAS was having their annual bowling tournament today it was the sunway megalanes for me. not to bowl (semenjak my shoulder problems dulu dah give up) but to cheer my mates on. batch spm '78 was going to be in the thick of things, right where the action would be!! hehehe tak kira la boleh main ke tak janji ada wakil. and since the guys were taking the trouble to play (walaupun setahun sekali je pegang bowling ball tu) takkan kita tak pegi support kot.

No we didnt win.... wasnt even in top 10.... but the guys were great sports. way to go wer, wan husni, wabswa & nor!!!!! it was fun rah rah rah-ing for yall and i would do it again in a heartbeat.

Oh and i had with me not 1 but 3 bodyguards!!

Come to think of it, maybe AH's not really bodyguard material tapi kira ok la tu (bodyguard semut bole la kan hik hik). i dont usually attend any of the EXSAS meets without someone in tow. bukan apa, especially when the hubs was away in turkmenistan risau gak la orang kata kita ni macam terlepas bebas. nak kena jaga la jugak his reputasi sebagai suami kan.

AH plak dengan bijaknye telah meng'optimise'kan the situation & telah mengheret her bf (and his bro) along. so while i was lepak-ing with my friends, she lepak-ed with hers... win-win both ways :)

Lepas tu since the boys were free kitorang pun 'kidnapped' them all the way home!!! oh pls nothing sinister here... just that the battery to AH's laptop was acting up and she wanted her bf to have a look. one thing let to another and before we knew it the boys stayed for dinner and had jemaah maghrib with AH's abah.

Heheh... talk about 'bonding' eh?!!

Another of life's surprises namun perjalanan masih jauh. we'll wait and see :)

*sigh* rindu la pulak kat AF & AI.

(AH confessed it was truly a touching experience to be praying together in jemaah... hmmm).


Workout Log
AM/Dataran Shah Alam - 50 mins moderate aerobics

Bersangka baik

... i have always believed in it and always will.

Bersangka baik in God's will, His infinite Wisdom and Benevolence. then it all becomes so much simpler and less stressful.

- if you're coveting that lucrative post but dont think you'll make the cut - berusaha & bersangka baik la, if its the best for you the job will be yours. if it turns out otherwise, redha je la maybe it would've turned you into a rich snob.

- if you're enjoying a good relationship but dont think it'll last the long haul - stick with it & bersangka baik la, if he's the best one for you jodoh tu tak ke mane. if it turns out otherwise, redha sebab who knows maybe he could've turned into a wife-beater.

The list goes on.

And try not to be too ready to believe the worse. humanity needs a second chance. its a cold & lonely existence when we're always suspecting the worse from everyone and everything.

Life has to be lived to fullest, berwaspada tapi jangan takut pada bayang2. just hold on to the belief that whatever happens, God knows best.

Oh and today walaupun penat tapi tetap puas. setelah seharian berpusing2 di low yat bersama AF & frens, janji pada AH tertunai la sudah - she's finally the esctatic owner of a brand new laptop!!!! asus something or other the specs of which telah membuatkan abang2 dia kecor liur dan jeles giler hehehe.

Sorry it took us soooooooo long darling (dah berselang purnama selepas pmr) and thank you for being soooooo patient.

We love you babe and enjoyz the lappy onkes hehe :)

A student of life

... become one and you'll see growth til the very end.

Its sad that we usually need something disastrous to happen before we take stock of what we're doing or where we're at.

Why?

I guess because its so much easier not to change. we just keep on doing whatever it is that we're doing until we hit a brick wall.

Quoting Andrew Matthews (he says it in such a simple & effective way) :

The only time most of us ever learn anything is when we get hit over the back of the head!

Take our health for example. When do we change diets & start exercising? When our body is falling apart - when the doctor says: "If you dont change your life style, you'll kill yourself!". Suddenly we're motivated.

In relationships - when do we usually tell each other how much we care? When the marriage is falling apart, when the family is falling apart!

In school - when do we finally knuckle down and study? When we're about to fail.

In business - when do we try new ideas and make the tough decisions? When we cant pay our bills. When do we finally learn about customer service? After the customers have left.

When do we usually pray? When our life is falling apart, "Dear Lord, i know i havent spoken to you since the last time the yoghurt hit the fan..."

We learn our biggest lessons when things get rough. When have you made the most important decisions in your life? When you were on your knees - after disasters, after knock-backs, when you've been kicked in the head. Thats when we say to ourselves: "I'm sick of being broke, sick of being kicked around. I'm tired of being mediocre. I'm going to do something". Success we celebrate, but we dont learn too much. Failure hurts and thats when we get educated. In retrospect, we usually notice 'disasters' were turning points.

Effective people (now thats who we want to be la heheh) dont go looking for problems, but when they get smacked in the mouth, they ask themselves: "How do i need to change what i'm thinking and what i'm doing? How can i be better than i am now?" Losers ignore all the warning signs. When the roof falls in they ask: "Why does everything happen to me?"

We are creatures of habit. We keep doing what we are doing until we are forced to change. So is life a series of painful 'disasters'? Not necessarily. The universe is always nudging us with gentle signals. When we ignore the signals, it nudges us with a sledgehammer.

Growth is most painful when we resist it.

In a nutshell
We are not here to be punished. We are here to be EDUCATED. Every event has the potential to transform us, and disasters have the greatest potential to change our thinking. Act as if every event has a purpose and your life WILL have a purpose. Figure out why (muhasabah la ni) you needed an experience, conquer it, and you wont need it again.

Oh my!!

I just never learn :(

Everytime i feel adventurous and change my template, i buy myself a truckload of new problems.

*sigh*

Tu la, takde penyakit cari penyakit. tapi... ceria sungguh la template baru ni. something that i stumbled upon by chance, and being sumtimes irrepressibly impulsive i just took it on tanpa berfikir panjang.

Adeh.

Now i lost mah widgets yall, along with it some of mah ole links.

*sigh*

Itu la dia RK, the unpredictably predictable person. huh? or is it the predictably unpredictable person? heish, pape je la ;)

Sumtimes she surprises even herself.

(tapi memang ceria sungguh blog ku kini hehehe.... but RED on a daily basis??!!! we'll see)

Strong emotions

.. can be destructive but when harnessed properly can generate a world of good.

Eh bunyi macam something from x-men plak ek. mutants learning to control and utilise their powers to their best advantage. tersangat la sci-fi je bunyinya..... tapi sebenarnya kita pun camtu gak skit2. strong feelings and emotions usually arise from a deep concern over the things we care about. kalau kita tak ambil peduli kita biarkan aje kan. and to be passionate about something is to be alive.

Really?

Yes, really.

Kalau kita terlalu 'tak kisah' semuanya akan menjadi hambar, nothing to really push us out of our comfort zones. terlalu comfortable nanti jadi macam kucing kena kasi plak.

So, if you're angry about something or jealous about something... its not necessarily a bad thing. in fact i read somewhere that "to not feel entirely sure of 'possessing' someone or something is what keeps desire alive". you just hafta teach yourself a little restrain, a little balance so that the strong feelings doesnt cloud your mind or your judgement. its a skill worth cultivating, even if it takes your whole lifetime. i'm still at it myself -_-

I was discussing it with the kids the other day. its normal to have jealous bfs & gfs... romantic jealousy is a common emotion when you love someone. freud said something like " if a person doesnt experience jealousy when an important relationship is threatened, something is not altogether right. it is akin to not feeling grief when someone you care deeply about dies. such a response most probably means that the person is working hard to supress jealousy and hiding it from self and others".

Also "jealousy is motivated by the need to protect a valued relationship".

Jadi bagus la kan when a bf or gf jeles sebab it only means they place a certain value to the relationship. all they want to do is to protect it from potential threat usually in the form of other people. tapi i understand, sikit2 takpe, yang tak larat tu is when it gets disturbingly out of hand sampai rasa lemas & rimas. we've all experienced jealousy at some point in our lives but its especially strong with young people. mungkin kerana orang muda masih kurang pengalaman dalam menangani masalah kehidupan terutama yang berkisar sekitar hati & perasaan.

Whatever the cause may be, we cant let jealousy consume us. it can get out of hand and many a case of violent abuse finds its roots in jealousy. how can we hurt the very people we profess to love? so, take a step back, reexamine our reaction and reestablish our feelings of love & affection. apapun dalam hidup kita ni, biarlah berpada-pada.

Its all about coping, about finding a way that works best for us. talking things out usually works tapi feelings must first be brought under control... kalau idak akhirnya kelahi jugak.

Dont let jealousy kill the love that's been tended to so carefully. rugi..... especially when its groundless.

Timely

God loves us.... HE never gives up on us and keeps sending timely reminders. its up to us whether to seize it or ignore it.

Yesterday was another one of those instances. Abe's rude awakening totally blindsided him... out of nowhere (or it seems that way tapi sebenarnya the signs were there but we just didnt see it, dumb blind fools that we are) the belly that he took for granted became the focus of his life. what if something was really really wrong with it?

So things turned out ok and now he feels he's been given a 2nd chance. alhamdulillah, it was a great opportunity to sit back and reconsider options.

Now he's excited about taking charge and caring for his body again, something he should've been doing but was oh, waylaid somehow (arent we all?). and he's not the only who's excited because i am too. rugi orang yang tak ambil iqtibal daripada pengalaman orang lain. dah tua2 ni macam2 can go wrong and whatever happened to him can so easily happen to me.

But i also know that we need to keep this momentum going.... because otherwise it would slowly fizzle off like that partly finished can of sprite you leave on the table. flat, unexciting and undesirable (nobody likes a flat fizzy).

Gotta start with a return to better eating habits. Abe's penchant for supper was never a good thing and that's the first thing to go.

No suppers.

At least not the heavy kind that he adores. the ones that come in the form of a full blown maggi goreng complete with perencah udang/daging/ayam/sayur or lempeng eaten with freshly made sambal mackerel. all this after dinner & dessert of course. maklum la the only time he gets to eat homecook meals is after he comes back from a hard days work. which usually means after the sun goes down.

Makan malam especially well into the nite puts a heavy strain on the body. our system needs to rest so we need to taper off slowly. tapi ni terbalik pulak, we're on full throttle.

Ok next will be the type of food to be made available. ni susah la sikit. Abe's favourite dishes involve frying, frying and more frying. to make this work he needs a mind shift and start enjoying soups, grilled and steamed stuff.

Hmmmmmm... rasanya macam gelap je masa depan sebab i've tried this many many times before and so far have never been successful, but who knows ya? theres a time for everything.... maybe this time the timing is right, kot terbuka pulak minda cik Abe kite ni.

Then its allevating the fitness level. hmmmmm, i have to somehow convince the man swinging that club every weekend is not enough, and being carted around in that buggy isnt the same as walking the greens and lugging his golfbag around on his own steam. i will also have to sell him the idea that working out at the gym and pounding the pavements with me will not only result in a fitter body but will also improve his golfing stamina.

Not an easy task... but i'm trying to ride on this wave of awareness i sense in him and hope that the momentum will carry it thru.

As for me, its also time to take charge and deal with these additional kgs seriously. i'm starting to be really gooooood at making excuses these days.

No more.

Thank you lord.

My dahleeeng

... isnt well. nothing that could be pinpointed but he's not feeling 100%.

Abe's turkmenistan posting had turned him into a much greater eater than he already was. the lack of food that he favoured and the horror of having to cook his own meals had traumatized him somewhat. now he doesnt let anything go to waste and voraciously devours everything that gets into his path.... sedap je semua!!

Anyway, with all that eating under his belt (ugh, dah tak boleh nak belt up his pants pun heheh), he's tummy has doubled in size!! gawd, buncit and tersangat la tegang. and of course he has developed symptons similar to that of a pregnant woman hehehe... sakit pinggang and extreme discomfort due to his extended belly.

But after a while, the discomfort increased to such a level that started us into thinking, hey maybe its more than overeating.... maybe it wasnt just the extra food but something else, something more sinister.

A preliminary check-up led him to a referral to sjmc, where he ended up doing both an endoscopy (oral invasion) and a colonoscopy (anal invasion), as well as an ultra sound thrown in for good measure. you know, stuff that needed done to see whats going on inside that belly of his.

The nite prior to the procedures, Abe had to ingest quite a substantial amount of prescribed fluid to ensure that his 'internal plumbing' is cleared of all waste, toxic or otherwise. everything was to be nice and clean. i could just imagine a perky young nurse saying "squeaky clean bowels ready for inspection, doc" lol. oh and let me tell ya, i was pretty darn tempted to abandon my post beside him that nite. you just wouldnt believe the amount of toxic gases that were released into the surrounding atmosphere (gasp GASP.... need i say more?).

Alhamdulillah according to the results this morning, his esophagus, stomach and intestines are fine... no signs of the big C or anything like that (thank god). just a decrease in certain hormones that's causing the slowing down of contractions aiding in digestion. the ultrasound on the other hand, shows a slight swelling of his liver (old story actually), due to too much fatty deposit.

So its meds, lotsa meds... and a change towards a healthier lifestyle (and no Abe, golf is NOT considered as 'working out' keh keh) and hopefully things will be under control.

Just another month

..... to the OLYMPICS, yay!!

08/08/08

Great numbers, especially for the chinese, so its pretty fitting that its being held in beijing.

Oh oh and i believe it has become quite meaningful for AH too.... part of it at least heheh ;)

Staying up

.... till the wee hours.

It always starts with Abe's plan to stay up for something or other... be it the golf masters, or pga tour, or uefa cup, or euro finals. latest is the wimbledon and since it started, its been tennis almost every night, reaching its most feverish pitch last nite, or should i say this morning?!

The thing is he'll be sleeping like a baby halfway thru and i'm the one left blinking away, too caught up in whatever it is that he started to even consider getting some shut-eye!!

I was the one watching the williams battling it out, blood against blood, sister against sister. frankly its always been venus for me. serena is a little too bulky, a little too graceless and she moves about like a tractor.. me, i like to see a little grace in court when it comes to the ladies.

Same thing with nadal & federer. the dream match as the commentators call it and what does my other half do? he snores thru the exciting returns hehehe..... of course the intermittent waits for the rain to clear up didnt really help but gawd, it was nadal vs federer, hellooo!!! tertido jugak dia ish ish... but it was about 4 in the wee hours till it was finally over. he never could handle late late nites :)

Maybe the spaniard deserve to win.... persistence should be rewarded i guess, but its such a joy to see federer play. the killer combination of strength & grace. only in tennis (and the replays) can you actually get to appreciate the full range of muscle play; controlled power rippling thru the body with each hit.

It makes me wanna go out and get me a toned body myself (a near impossible task but what the heck..... makciks can dream too cant they hehe).

But first *yawn* i've got to get thru the day at least in half functional mode *yawn*

Oooh.. just for the record, i did put in a slow 4k run sunday morning followed by a nice looong stretching session. not much in getting toned la but something is better than nothing ;)

Sakit pinggang

Wheeeeeeeee.... Abe didnt have any golf scheduled and i had him all to myself the whole freakin day :)

Apa lagi, i didnt want to miss the chance and managed to coerce him into jogging with me first thing. pretending not to hear his half-hearted 'sakit pinggang la' excuses, we set out with a stern note from him "dekat je tau... tak nak pegi jauh2".

Alhamdulillah the cool breezy morning must've gotten to him because he relented halfway and took a much further route than first agreed upon; we passed the sec 9 shop lots right up to the concorde intersection, onto pusat seni islam and state mosque, cruised the dividing road between sec 10 & 11, then crossed back over to sec 9.

Maybe we did 3-4km.

Maybe.

But it was my jog against his brisk-walk and at some point or other i had to leave him dawdling somewhere behind since his pace kept getting slower and slower. of course i made my way back to him again and again. unfortunately if i didnt run, i wouldnt sweat and really felt like it wasnt doing me any good otherwise.

Apapun he's on the roads again... yay. before long he'll be back to the slow jog that he had previously progressed to (before he became lay-zeeee and gave up hehe).

Of course after the session the 'sakit pinggang' came back. oh and especially after he downed a heaped helping of nasi dage stacked with daging goreng, sotong and ikan (his own) & half bowl of laksam (mine) at sri TTDI *___*

First weekend without the boys. they should be well settled in by now, at least i hope so. i'm just happy that AI took the lower bunk at my request even tho i know he feels my reasons are the silliest on earth, considering that he's almost 20.. but the upper bunk fills me with nothing but nightmares; 1. he'd accidentally jatuh katil in his sleep 2. he'd accidentally bang his head on the overhead fan (like he did once before). i just cant help it bcos the guy does have a medical history concerning head trauma.

Insyallah, all will be well.

These days AH doesnt seem too desperate to go out. maybe its the webcam, courtesy of her bf. aaaah.... technology ;)


Workout Log
AM : 3-4km jog round the neighbourhood

Rejab

Rejab is back.... its time to prepare the body & soul for more vigorous days ahead.

The wildness in my heart needs taming and the pounds on my body needs shedding soooo, its indeed a timely reminder.

Lord, give me the will to stay committed.


AF has found a rented house suited to his immediate needs and will be starting his practical next week. all he needs is more funds.
AI is safely back in lendu but i know its going to be sometime before he's settled down enough to be fully functional. long breaks can actually weaken resolve.
AH is finding out love can be both simple & complicated at the same time. fairytales dont exist and while awareness is better than oblivion, it can be quite painful.

Sick

AH's down with flu and i'm having this familiar sick feeling at the pit of my stomach.

Its that time again...... by thursday nite both my boys will be back in college.

*sigh*

Long semester breaks wreck havoc with my feelings because i'm lulled into this blissful state when all my 'babies' are home and then wham!! time's up and i lose them all over again.

Rindu. nasib baik la i still have AH with me.... for now.