Stop whizzing will ya!

Everything around me is moving a little too fast to my liking right now.

I need to get my equilibrium back and fast.

I've been stuffing my face takde kesian punye - sumbat till i puke. and the only thing that can trigger this awful bout of bingeing is unresolved worry/trouble/anxiety. even though i've long buried my dark bullimic past, this is getting a little too close for comfort.

*deep calming breaths* come on you can do it.... face the serabut head on.

So Abe's away - but life goes on woman. even if you always get a little 'weng' or out of sync when he's not around for long periods of time, deal with it.

AI's spm - even though the old ticker skips a beat everytime you think about it, if he says its ok then its ok. insyallah, have faith and just carry on with the fasting and the solat sunnats.

Mak - she's always been the boss of her so even if she's not well and complaining of headaches, body aches etc, you'll never get her to see the doctor until she's ready. worry is useless... no means NO and forcing has NEVER worked.

SIL - even if she did have a mild stroke on monday, she's out of the woods now and has all her children looking after her. stop feeling bad about not visiting her, you'll see her when you can.

MIL - of course she's affected by all that has happened. the SIL's been living with her since she was widowed 2 years ago. and she also misses her son and worries about him no matter what you say. just keep dropping by daily to check on her and spend the nite when all is settled with mak and AI. she has others with less on their hands so let go of the guilt!!

Work - whatdaya expect? its year's end. buat ape yang termampu, do what you have to do.

To unserabut the serabut.

Hmmmmm.

You are not atlas and nobody expects you to hold up the world.

OK.