Freedom

Travel on a freshly resurfaced highway and we'd probably get an inkling of what sudden unlimited freedom might feel like !!! and i must tell you for me its pretty scaaaary.

Just picture it..... there you are speeding down the highway, out on one of your endless tight schedules, focused on staying on the fast lane and god save any errant drivers that might get in your way !! then suddenly, pooof, there're no more lines or markers to mark your way. you're in unchartered territory. you're thinking, "whoa.... no markers" and you feel a stab of loss at first but the sudden freedom excites you and automatically you speed up, eager to be king of the pack. but it doesnt take you long to realise you're not the only one. everyone else is scrambling to be ahead, its a free for all: "oh noooo, what the hell is that guy doing ? he's not supposed to cut across like that" and next you're screaming "you moron !!! jgn makan jalan lah ... stick to your bloody lane (but of course theres no lane to stick to anymore)". you push ahead but even though the newly laid surface is such a joy, before long you're praying that the stretch would end and that order be restored to your life in the form of that simple white line.

Theres order and theres chaos. which brings me to wonder, can we really truly handle unlimited freedom?!


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The istana is under termite attack !!!!!!! well that certainly galvanized the state govt into calling a meeting to settle the matter (nobody wants to face Tuanku's wrath obviously lol). not knowing her way around, the new boss roped me in (i am after all a 'veteran' of long standing lol). one has to be extremely careful with istana projects, they certainly are a breed apart. silap2 kena buang negeri heheh. anyway, it dragged on and on and on for close to 2 hours (i was having problems focussing by then and my empty tummy didnt help one bit lol). ended up all 7 istanas are to be treated. bummer.... more work for moi.

Somehow the whole thing drained whatever energy i had left and by the time i got home and broke fast.... melepek giler !! Sad to report, not only did i miss out on my thursday gym session @ maksak, i also couldnt muster up enough will to attempt a nite run. just sempat jemaah with the kiddos, yassin & terus padam *sigh* you're such a wimp pah !!