PMR trials

AH is finally feeling the heat... this blur n extremely 'relaxed' daughter of mine is finally grasping the fact that PMR is just round the corner. tapi kesian la pulak sebab she hasnt quite triumphed over the marauding viruses that suddenly decided to invade her fertile young body. masih dok pening2, masih kelihatan agak pucat, masih tak berapa bermaya.

The PMR trials starts today and the first paper is pengetahuan islam... not really one of her strong fortes especially this year. why? sebab for one, its a mugging subject, macam sejarah and the likes, and AH's not much of a mugger thats for sure lol. and altho i've always cautioned her against equating a subject to the teacher, it's been sort of 'diabaikan' bcos she cant stand the self-righteous attitude of the ustazah. rugi la camtu sbb her inability to be objective sebenarnya memakan diri but i guess such objectivity is gained thru experience n maturity. AI pun went thru the same thing during his first semester. logic over emotion... not an easy thing to do even at my age.

Next trial paper.... Bahasa Melayu on monday.

Entah laa with the boys all grown up and tinggal si bongsu, i find myself not as strict and driven as i used to be in matters concerning education & discipline. kalau dulu2 tak pegang rotan tak sah even if it served more as a deterrent than anything else. sekarang ni bayang rotan pun takde!! i'm not too sure its altogether for the better but thats just the way it is. one mellows as one gets older. tu pasal grandparents manjakan cucu. its not so much the titles of atok & nenek that makes them so, its more the age. u get maudlinly sentimental over even the littlest things.... and nak marah2 sangat pun tak sampai hati. perhatikan la parents yang dapat anak masa middle age... the ones you didnt expect to have (but which dont necessarily mean didnt want). you'll see them doting on their child just as grandparents would... maybe just a mite less in degree of kemanjaan tapi manja la jugak. kemungkinan anak2 jadi spoilt lil brats agak tinggi so kena la cuba2 keep such tendencies in check (self reminder lol).

Apapun cik echa sayang mama... kalau susah2 sangat kan, mama kahwinkan cepat aje nanti hehehe ;)